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The Bear
23 September 2011 @ 05:47 pm

Which is one of the many reasons I'm bothered by the fact that we (Bf and I) have been in shoe shops for the past hour, as he tries on about eighty pairs of shoes and does a walk in ALL OF THEM.

SlIghtly concerning when your boyfriend spends more time shoe shopping than you do. I go in, already with an idea of what I want. I grab three pairs, and whatever is comfiest is bought. in and out within ten mins. One shoe shop. Done.

So, my mum is a selfish cow. She decides she doesn't wanna go to the party for my nephew on Sunday, cause she doesn't feel like driving. She then tells me she's gonna put money in my account for me to get a present for him from her. Fair enough, I can do that. She asked about 4 days ago, still hadn't gotten back to me by today, so I texted her. She says "Oh, forgot about you. Yeah, not doing that any more. I already sent a birthday card and a gift voucher. Was cheaper than posting him toys."
...Are you serious?
She then launches into how she wishes people would include her in things more. Lady, I wasn't even invited till today. I ain't bitching about it. Get over yourself, you were invited to come, you've just chosen not to.



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The Bear
22 September 2011 @ 06:56 pm

I never really seem to appreciate my city's landmarks. Just now, waiting for my train, overheard some tourists talking about how cool it was to be at Flinders Street Station. I was a bit like "Are you guys serious? I come here at least twice a week."
But yeah, Australia's first railway station is apparently not only a shithole, but a national landmark. Who knew?

Anyway, spent the past few days with the boy. Saw the new Johnny English on Tuesday night. Can't say I was overly thrilled, but I wasn't expecting much. It's still gets at least a 2 star rating simply for having Rowan Atkinson in it though. There really is moody quite like him in the acting world. He's uh... Different. In a kind of good way.

Problems seem to be resolved with boy. He sent me these last Friday:

Along with quite a lengthy apology. Aww.
I guess he knows he kinda upset me.

We stayed in bed sleeping from 10pm last night till about 2pm today. Literally just sleeping and cuddling and stuff. And then an hour or two doing other non sleep things


I'm off home for tonight, for Rovers, and then back to his place tomorrow till Sunday night.

Train reception is shit. Time to post. <3

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The Bear
21 September 2011 @ 12:30 am

I didn't know the livejournal app for iPhone was free. This is a bit of a pointless post though, really, to say that said app impresses me.

I can POST FROM BED. Which is what I'm doing now. Boyfriend has taken it upon himself to start snoring really loudly about five mins ago, just after I woke up in the middle of the night. Ugh.

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The Bear
16 September 2011 @ 01:40 am
Had a weird and kind of selfishly bad past few days.
Also, I'm slightly pissed that as soon as I decide to start an LJ, it seems I just all of a sudden start having things that sound whiny to every one else, but are still things I wanna vent about anyway.
My journal is turning into one of THOSE journals.

Anyway, a really weird thing, first. I play a game called Fiesta, and I have for a long time. I'm Guild Master of a guild on there, so I basically am in charge of my own little online family made up from people from all over the world. Anyway, a girl who has been in my guild for QUITE some time now, (a few months) has hit a level in the game where we can start taking her out to kill monsters with some of the higher level characters in our guild. As a result, even though, we used to chat heaps, we're now spending more time in the game together, and learning more things about each other we didn't know before. A group of us got onto the topic of FFVII, and then, I mentioned fanfiction. I said I write it, admitted to writing yaoi, yuri, het, basically everything. We all have a bit of a giggle over it, and then this girl whispers me and says she goes on FF.net, and maybe she knows me on there. Turns out she does, and she's actually one of my regular reviewers and has me on her fave author list. We were flipping out hardcore.

Then, the weird bit was, she got all... weird. It was like she was looking at me in a whole new light, and she stopped seeing me as just her Guild Master. She became more chatty with me, but she also got a little fangirly. It's like she idolises me, and I really don't know how to take it. I'm really not THAT good. lol. I'm so excited to have that bond with someone in the game though, and she's super nice!

Also, Jesus, another coincidence of the day from the same game: I partied up with another girl, who said she's from Perth. She goes to the same school as rafira, and is also into fanfic and the likes. Mind. Blown.

Pointless bitching about a fight with the bf.Collapse )

So, I've been cranky and sulky and confused pretty much all day, as well as a little pissed off. Probably illogically, cause it always seems to be my fault according to certain peeps. Who the hell knows?
So I ended up snapping a few times at some people who really didn't deserve it, and regretted it immediately afterwards. Luckily, they've understood and said it was alright. Still, guilt trippin' my ass off. I wish I could say it was hormones, but I really don't think it is. I think I'm just slightly insane. >.<

I'm kind of excited about Jojo's birthday. Can't believe she's 21. I've missed her so much since I moved away from Broady. :x

Also, I dyed my hair. I went blonde to do a cosplay of Elena, which turned out shit anyway, and then decided I wanted to go purple. The chick at the priceline we went to said not to go purple from blonde though. I wanted a really dark purple and she said "It'll end up REEEEEALLY bright purple", so I basically said eff that, and we went with dying it blue-black instead. I think it looks alright. We'll see. lol
Lurkin' In or At: home. COLD FINGERS.
Cranky Level: bitchybitchy
Current Earworm: Love love love ~ Avalanche City
The Bear
07 September 2011 @ 04:32 am
Would you change anything about your significant other? What would it be?
Would I change anything about my boy?

I'd like to be able to say no, and that everything is perfect, but not quite. :P
There's only one major concern of mine, and that's the small fact that a lot of the time, he makes me feel like he doesn't have enough time for me.
Five, six, seven hours... sometimes more... I'll have asked him a somewhat important question, or merely wondering if he's okay, and he will be so distracted for these HUGE periods of time that I won't hear from him at all. Not a word.

Granted, a lot of the time, he's at work and work gets busy.
But not even thirty seconds for a "Hey, sorry I can't talk, things are crazy, I'm ok. xo" text would be more than enough.

I told him it bothers me, he said he's gonna change.
I really hope it does change, but I'd still rather deal with the hurt and worry than let him go if it doesn't end up changing after all.

Cranky Level: tiredtired
Current Earworm: Changed The Way You Kissed Me ~ Example
The Bear
07 September 2011 @ 03:33 am
So, this is an all new LJ. Let's all hope it turns out a little more active than my last one.
Also, the name is to throw people a little off from who I am. I'll be posting pics and stuff in future, but this is my alternative, alternative, mainly unused username that I resort to when I'm hiding on more than one layer. I'll get found, no doubts about it, and I don't mind TOO much, but I'll let whatever happens happen. :P

Besides... I liek mudkipz. 8D

So, how's my life right now? Kind of unexpected from what I had thought it would be back in the day. A slightly depressing thought in some ways, but not in others.

I have fallen in lurrrrve (oooh la la) with a boy I met off twitter. I shouldn't really call him a boy, he's 6 years older than me, almost 7. :P It's been a little over 3 and a half months, so still a relatively new thing, but he seems serious about me, and I am dead serious about him. It wasn't planned, expected, or prayed for, but I'm glad it all came together. Everyone says we look alike. Even my dad. Jesus.

Anyway, I am living away from home with some people that I... also met off twitter.

Thank you, internet.

That's working okay, but I'm desperate for work right now. I'm not entitled to government payments because of red tape and loopholes, so I find myself relying on the family I'm living with a heck ofa lot more than I should be. I've been looking on and off for god knows how long. The only reason there are 'off' periods at all, is that I keep losing hope when I am continually coming within inches of something, and being told I'm being knocked back for someone just as awesome except... you know... a little more awesome.

I took the initiative to do a few little things though: My RSA, RSF, and RSG. (Responsible serving of Alcohol, Food, and Gambling). Hopefully that'll get my foot in the door of the hospitality industry, even a little. Planning to apply for a shitload of jobs today, actually. Wish me a shitload of luck. :x

For those who knew me off my old LJ, my nephew is almost THREE. ARGH. Those who are new to me here will come to learn I am the biggest sap of an aunty out there. I love my little man.


I'm sure there's a ton of other stuff I could say, but I think this will do for now.

Lurkin' In or At: Hoooome
Cranky Level: relaxedrelaxed
Current Earworm: Somebody That I Used To Know ~ Gotye